Shades of Green.

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I live in a part of the USA overrun with a diversity in weather for lack of other diverse things that could mark this town and region.

Fall is colorful or grey; there is really no in between with bright skies and orange-red leaves one day that turn to a stark grey barrenness as soon as the wind shakes those leaves from the branches. Winter brings ice, snow, sleet, and a bitter cold that reaches its fingers all the way to my bones making it miserable to be outside, or like that one winter, it was in the 50’s for most of January; one just never knows. Spring is wet- colorful like fall with tulips, red clover, and other flowering plants- but it is a long time coming as often it can snow in April and rain through May; sun where are you?

But it is July now, so I want to focus on summer. Summer in my area is marked with rain and overcast skies most days. Sometimes the rain comes out of nowhere in a black-grey, thundering mass rolling through the sky, that pelts the earth with big, hard raindrops. The rain cools down the mugginess and humidity that makes the air heavy. Rain also takes care of the bugs, giving a brief respite to the buzzing around my ears; mosquitoes that just love my skin; bees that have a knack for picking me out to explore and chase around in circles, leaving my friends in peace; or, my favorite was yesterday, I was writing at a park and a daddy long-leg spider literally climbed 1/2 way up my calf before I felt him on me and I karate chopped him off my leg. Gross!

It is these humid, rainy, buggy days that put me in a state where the “grass is greener on the other side.” Moving to the northeast of the US from sunny, southern California, the grass is not literally greener as there is an intense water deficit in CA. But I yearn for the long, dry, sunshiney days that CA is known for. Picnics are never cancelled on account of the weather and the term “rain date” is a foreign concept. I long for heat where I don’t feel sticky, beaches, and palm trees reaching for the cloudless, blue sky above. And most of all, I miss orange and fuchsia sunsets showing off above the ocean.

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The rain where I live keeps me inside and I worry about summer getting away from me. When I do go outside, there are the perils of before mentioned bugs and insects and the black garden snake with white stripes lining his back that I saw in my mother’s garden.

Then, in a brilliant moment, the rain disappears and I see a rainbow shimmering in a hazy arch- such a mysterious array of color that MUST have a leprechaun with a pot of gold at the end of it. The clouds part and a mist rises from the trees into the sunlight, radiating an ethereal beauty. The downpour subsides leaving a dripping from the wet leaves in it’s wake, sounding like faint music. And when I inhale, the earth smells mossy, sweet, clean, and refreshed.

Rick McEwanPhoto Cred: Rick McEwan

I realized after the last storm that the sun always shines again and when it does my favorite color green shimmers in various shades of hunter, jade, and sweet lime. Green is everywhere in this piece of the USA that I live during summer. And it’s beautiful, life-giving, fresh, and rich.

It takes the rain to bring out the full force of green in the gardens and woods around me.

Bringing this to a personal level, I can’t have that rich, beautiful, colorful life I imagine for myself with out the rain and storms of life to grow me. Like the earth and gorgeous summer green that marks the east coast, the hardships of growing up are necessary for me to reach my potential.

Whether it’s the job application and resume dance that seems to lead me further down an endless, dark tunnel and I just want to give up; the dysfunctional family drama that seems to pop up just as I am ready to forgive again and take down the walls I’ve built to protect myself; or the financial stress of not having a steady paycheck to pay for medical bills or the last visit to the mechanic for my car…

I have the hope from watching the world around me that these clouds of life will clear! The rain will stop. And in the storm’s place will be a rainbow, sunlight, mist, a unique beauty, a new song, and most of all a full, rich, thriving life in the shades of green that are unique to me. So let’s be real. I love the rain. The world needs it.

#JewelsOnTheMove #CrossCountryAdventure #6WeekRoadTrip

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Starting March 29 and ending May 10, I took a solo road trip across the USA from coast to coast, up the coast, and finally landed back east. Starting in my hometown in Pennsylvania, I traveled to Lexington, KY; Knoxville, TN; Kansas City, MO; Denver, CO; Apache Junction, AZ; Los Angeles, CA. Then I drove up the California coast to Santa Barbara, San Fransisco, Portland, OR; Port Ludlow, WA; Seattle, WA. After two nights in Seattle, I took a “hard right” back east, staying with family friends in Montana, stopping by Crazy Horse and Mt. Rushmore in South Dakota, cutting north for a college friends wedding in Minnesota, and stopping to see two long lost friends I met during my Semester in Spain who live in Iowa and Chicago area. Last, I booked it home from Chicago on Sunday, May 10, to make it home for the tail end of Mama’s Day.

People have asked me, “Why did you take the trip?”Didn’t you get lonely?”Weren’t you scared?” Except for a 13 hour drive through the desert from Denver to Apache Junction- where, yes, I had a moment of tears and frustration, seeing nothing but DESERT for 100s of miles, alone except for maybe one other car and too many truckers- it was honestly easy, fun, and awesome.

I experienced the USA coast to coast, visiting with friends, some of whom I hadn’t seen for 3-5 years, but have stayed in touch with on and off through the years. I was blessed to see the unique lives of people from every region of the USA in one fell swoop and all the cultural differences of each region. The USA, I decided, is diverse – climate, land, the way people talk, what they eat, how they drive, the clothes they wear… all of these differences pointing to the values that make up our unique country.

This cross country road trip was something that I thought I would venture at some point during my years of college as I attended school in California, while my family still lived in Pennsylvania. It never happened. Flying outweighed driving every visit home and I never transported enough “stuff” at once that it couldn’t fit in my suitcase.

So, this past spring, when I decided that the east coast is a good change of scenery (not that I wouldn’t move to CA in a heartbeat if the right job opened up), God told me, “Go get your things and take that road trip you always wanted. Oh and drive to your friends wedding in Minnesota instead of flying.”

When is the right time for a cross country road trip that I’ve always wanted to take and never felt like I could? Now. Now is the time. It was time to go get the books, clothes, and mementos that had accumulated in Santa Barbara, CA for over 5 years that I left in a storage unit when I moved home 6 months before. And the multifaceted trip really boiled down to three parts: Go clear out that storage unit to stop paying for monthly storage. Get to Allissa’s wedding on time, and driving gives flexibility to come early and help out if needed (which it was 😉 ). See the country and all those friends whom you haven’t in months or years.

On March 8, my birthday, I first heard the song “Beautifully In Over My Head” by Jenn Johnson, which became my life theme song and is what carried me to believe, decide, and plan this road trip across the US. That I can do this. I have God and friends from here to there and back again, this can totally work. The trip fell together in two weeks, I didn’t plan it really, God had his hand on each piece of the trip. Texting, calling, and Facebooking friends, every person I asked to see was available when I asked to see them. It was totally blessed.

As for all the long drives by myself… This introvert NEEDED the alone time to process life and all the visiting. I was able to pray, cry, listen to music, books on tape, sermons, and just be quiet and BREATHE taking in the scenery and all the open road in front of me to behold.

Like I said. Blessed trip. And though I freaked out the day before I left, almost canceling the trip, “Beautifully In Over My Head” encouraged me and I realized that who cares what happens? Just Go For It. So I did.

I’ve been home for weeks now, but that hasn’t stopped me from making my own video memoir of the trip, which I am sharing here on my blog. A good friend allowed me to borrow his GoPro during my 6 weeks on the road and I just finished the last edits, changes, and details of the video. Please excuse all the bumps. It was my first time to use a GoPro and didn’t realize all the micro movements that the camera would pick up. Plus, I was filming while driving for much of the footage and the steering wheel was more important than the footage at the time 😉 .

Enjoy.

April: Sexual Assault Awareness Month

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I wrote this post for the blog I manage Know Your Value by Wonderfully Made ministry. I wanted to publish it to my personal blog as well, since this is such a prevalent issue in our society and we all need to be made aware of how far reaching it is.

During spring I can’t help but to think of new life. The grey, snowy, icy, and often dismal cold melts away to tulips popping up in different colors, fragrant jasmine and honeysuckle, with birds and bunnies everywhere. Spring brings a sense of freedom where I no longer stand stiff in a bunchy winter coat, but can swing my arms unhindered. It is a time of change and life, but especially with Easter and the sense of freedom in Christ that cycles in each spring.

Freedom in Christ is a powerful idea, and maybe an overly used cliché for the Christian today. But as April is Sexual Assault Awareness Month, freedom in Christ is one truth that women can cling to, bringing hope to those who have experienced this trauma. Sexual Assault is a real issue. It is an issue that might carry the sting of judgments, feelings of shame, and broken hearts. This is an especially big topic for women in high school and college, as 44% of victims are under the age of 18 and 80% of victims are under the age of 30, according to RAINN Network. Women and girls who experience sexual assault are prone to abuse alcohol and drugs and suffer from depression.

This topic is not often talked about, which is why it is important for Wonderfully Made to address the seriousness of sexual assault. We want to see women living free in Christ! We want to stand behind girls to find counselors, get mentors, and the necessary support for sexual assault. Resources for you to connect with if you need to can range from seeing a counselor at your college campus, Rape Crisis Center, National Sexual Assault Hotline, and specifically for college students NotAlone.gov. At Wonderfully Made, we want to add the importance of freedom to the depths of your core and the bottom of your heart through Christ as the healer and redeemer.

If you have friends who have experienced sexual trauma, abuse, or assault, we want to encourage you to be their friend. Listen to their stories. And know that each story is important. God does not dismiss those who have been oppressed and healing can take time. If you yourself have experienced sexual assault- Know Your Value as being “fearfully and wonderfully made” and a Daughter of the King. Seek the help you need and trust that “the time of the Lord’s favor has come.” We are praying for your healing and freedom this spring.

We invite you to watch Ciara’s story of healing.